Well that’s it - it’s over .... for now

Had a video chat with my dr today. These are scary times. He’s not even going to the office and seeing patients. We debated all the options for my last round and finally decided that the risks outweigh the reward. There are too many asymptomatic people in my area that no matter where he sent me he could not guarantee my safety. He said 90% I’m already cured but there’s no real data on doing five rounds vs six. He won’t send me for a pet scan either since there’s a chance of contact; and he’s already dealing with a lot of patients that have Covid symptoms. So I’m done with Chemo. If in three months I can get a pet scan and anything shows well then we’ll address with more chemo or possibly radiation. Ive always known I will never have complete peace of mind that they will say “you’re clean” as they can never tell for sure. It’s not like they cut it out. All I can do is hope for the best and remain quarantined. Like you I worry for my friends and family that this hideous virus does not effect their health, it’s already effected more than our livelihoods and our way of life. I wish I could end this blog with a positive message but also like everyone all I have are more questions. I know we will and I will survive....there are no more treatments for me. Mom, I’m glad you didnt see this world today, in many ways you wouldn’t recognize it, in others the love we all continue to share shines through. Wishing you and your loved ones health and safety for eternity.