Today I got my diagnosis...

We’ll you already know I'm having chemo. I’ve known that for for a few days now as well But I didn’t know what type till today....but I’m getting ahead of myself. I left off at my banding procedure and my terrific weightloss but 15 years after banding the weight started coming back on. Maybe it’s because I always push the limits on everything or maybe when it comes to myself I just can’t deny myself anything. Hell I just ate a Krispy Kreme! But whatever ;) I went back to my banding doctor for help and was handed a nifty little shot called Saxenda. Let’s just start with this shit works... I have a friend who totally changed her entire body and is a svelte being so I figured that even with my pain aversion I could force myself to give a shot in the stomach each day. After insurance approved this miracle cure for fatness I started gradually raising the dosage. I’m not sure if it worked because it was working or because I was literally nauseas all the time. The shot not a drug but an enzyme is supposed to make you feel full. The first two weeks I thought I was dying and even had bloodwork done to make sure. I was depressed (that’s typically not me) and not able to function for a few days. Yes, I worried about the side effects but hey I was going to be skinny! After a few months the effects started to wear and i plateaued losing 25 pounds. My hubby and I were concerned what this enzyme (not a drug) might be doing to me and I slowly weaned myself to the lowest level of application planning to stay there for a while and then maybe increase so I could lose more weight. I didn’t really make that decision on my own my banding dr validated that as possible use, after all people with diabetes are supposed to be able to stay on this (known as Victoza for diabetes) forever. I finally decided to stop the Saxenda totally. That was about eight weeks ago. Oh yeah did I mention my mom and I are having chemo at the same time.....