No sleep

It’s happening today….today they harvest my stem cells and I’ve not had any sleep this night. I used to be like that with flying and travel. I never slept the night before a flight. Too much going through my brain. But I got over it as my travel increased. I don’t think I’ll ever get over this today nor do I want to.

it’s not like I didn’t try to sleep….but stomach first was queazy. T I played Pandapop for hours on my phone hoping it would wear me out. But no luck. Not even the free casino games made me sleepy. That continuous motion of wheels spinning on a slot machine usually does the trick when it’s on my phone. m

I can’t count sheep or listen to soothing music. I just have to wait for morning to come and deal with it.

It’s 5:19. I might as well get up now and at least eat breakfast. We leave at 7:30 for a nine hour day. Hopefully they collect enough cells today and I don’t have to come back but somehow I’m not sure I’ll be that lucky. well I shouldn’t say that. So far I’ve been lucky. Other than a little residual pain from my surgery installing the Hickman line this week I didn’t have any residual effects from the shots they gave me to expand my bone marrow or the shot that miraculously tells the stem cells to get ready to make more and move in my body. Science and our achievement in research really is amazing.

and now here we are. At the moment of taking what Feels like that first big step. There’s no turning back. Sorry i can’t find a funny thing to say about this - I no longer see the humor in this it is just too raw.